Our crush similarities :- two

Where did i stop? Oh yeah! A fling without physicals. I thought that was how this was going to end, i mean it got us distracted from our main course but hey there was more to this that i didn’t quite get Follow me.

The speaker made me repent, i didn’t want the whole distraction anymore, the next function day i sat behind him,he couldn’t see me but i could see him. Why sit close to him right?I mean the auditorium was big enough to sit a 100m away from him but no behind him was the place to be, so could there still be something?
My nigga was craning and stretching so hard just to look for me but each time he prolly turned towards me, i ducked. Sad huh?

The next function day, which was not a formal function he mounted the platform and just like magnet and metal he sighted me, he bowed and smiled he lifted his head just to prolly be sure it was me and yeah it was so he grinned so much i could almost count his teeth from the back seat where i sat. How could he spot me out in that much crowd? Well who cares i felt excited.

The next day being a formal function, i had to miss because i had an important event to attend. I wasn’t spiritually where i was, i just wanted to get back to base and of course see him also.

The next function day i couldn’t wait to go infact, i got my clothes ready two days to that day, and i had made up my mind to talk to him. Not ask him out kind of talk,i told a couple of friends so unlike me am not a kiss and tell.one told me the exact thing to go talk to him. And it would help right?I would know from the conversation if it was a waste of time or not. If i loose the attraction at the point of talking to him or after talking to him it would save me so much stress but if i feel like getting to know him more then i would know how to follow it. wait! I thought this was supposed to be over Just a fling right? why is it still lingering? Well!

I was dressed for the occasion i knew the kind of outfit he liked and of course that was my kind of outfit so lets go there! hehehe. I wore my vast jacket, a decent but spectacular ripped jean, my awezome snicks and of course one of my most favorite fashion outfit my baseball cap. You know baseball caps have a way of standing you out in a crowd of people with no caps so yeah, it was intentional lol.

Just as i entered it was like my wi fi hot spot was on, he turned and we connected. But hey! Am not ready for this distraction thing so i turned it off. Got into my war-ship and sailed. Well he was still connected but i wasn’t, looked like my concentration got him to concentrate because i caught him war-shipping at some point so yay! how come you saw him if you weren’t looking right? Yeah you know that 360, 180 degrees angle looking that you don’t have to look directly, yeah that kind of lookery (the act of looking) Lol. The function was powerful the WORD, he and his crew blew me away.The more reason to like him right? But i didn’t like him because of what he was, i just liked him. After the function, music went on and alot of people stayed back to dance.I was sitting but still gave my best dance moves and operating my phone. He angle 180ed towards me to peek at what i was doing in form of greeting someone. This time, i wasn’t pretend operating my phone, i actually was Lol.

Music stopped and people started exiting the auditorium. I followed but went out to wait for him while he and his crew members had their benediction. After that, my nigga refused to roam I waited and waited then finally i did something am still thinking about right now if i was the one who did it. I sent someone to call him. Ah! #coveringeyes. I saw when the dude told him someone was calling him but i never saw him stand up but like lightening he appeared in a split second. Yeh! I was icecold. When he saw it was me He couldn’t talk, neither could i. But just to be brave i said hi my name is Blessing and he said hi, hey guy you don’t have to say your name you know even Google knows it lol. We had a great talk and the lamest lines I’ve ever constructed hit me and i said hey you owe me my Nike leads yeh! Nike leads? He asked, Yeah those shoes with the lited sole you wore that night and he grinned nah those won’t fit they are quite big, just give them i said. So we argued on that a bit, good thing the convo was going well and he kept asking so whatsup with you? Nigga this ain’t time for maxi gist, that time will come but if you want me to go on well i can its just some minutes pass 10:00pm not too late but my parents will kill me Lol. I was sad i had to leave but it was late, Then he made one of the sweetest punchlines ever, after a very long conversation that any regular guy would quickly forget my name he said Blessing right? Huh? You remember? Yeah and i won’t forget, you attend here right? C’mon nigga we’ve been doing this lookery thing a while that’s a lame line Lol. Then i realised this is way more than a fling we have a connection not a dating one but a close friends one.

OUR CRUSH SIMILARITIES. #FLING WITHOUT PHYSICALS..

Well.. Crushing is a very natural thing and feeling. Nobody should go all religious about it, because You do not have control over; Who You would have a crush on, however, You have control over how You handle the crush situation.

Its is not a sin to see someone and really like the Person, but it turns a sin when negative energies and thoughts are channeled into the likeness.

Well, here’s My story about a crush I had, and Probably Our similar crushing experience. Maybe in a different storyline.

Here, in this great 3 weeks in May, when I was supposed to be consecrating Myself, I found Myself in crush with this Dude.. Here’s how it started.

There I was, watching the Musicians do Their thing. Known to all who know Me, I Am a Music Person. Enjoying the show right in front of Me, I gave My best concentration; until I turned side ways. Then I locked eyes with Him. The anonymous, cause He is Famous. Strange. I tooked away, but rather in a couple of seconds looked back that direction and Our eyes locked again. Like We planned it.

Well, that happens right? But then, It wasn’t just a regular “happens” because it became intense.. Every time I looked, We locked eyes.. So for the rest of the event, it was that way..

There I was, closing one eyes, and looking with the other eyes if He was watching. And yes He was. Maybe My looking back at Him triggered His looking too.. But which ever case, We both started committing lookery. (the act of looking)

I gave the whole worship I had for two weeks in that service,just so He could feel like Whoa! She’s a Lover of GOD. Which is not a lie, because even in that whole scene, I was trying to focus on GOD.

I Danced so much just to make a dance impression, that I almost broke My back bone.
Well, good thing was ; I wasn’t in the crush thing alone. He gave Me a good show, as much as I did Him.
When He had a function, He always looked out for Me, which of cause gave Me so much delight.

This went on for weeks.. And yes I saw Him everyday because of the function We had to attend.
Ah! Most renowned, perpetual late comer like Me, became a fervent punctual Personality(FPP); Just so I’d sit in a place where He would see Me.
This Faithful day, I got to the venue and My phone rang, on picking the call, He walked out of the gate.. Shy and tensed I walked pass Him. He mumbled a Hi but I couldn’t reply cause I was on the phone. Which ended almost immediately. I was so upset because I just missed a Hi reply to My crush. Which probably would have led to something else. Well, there will be other chances. I went in, got a seat at His favorite spot. I decided to step out to go create “other chances”. On stepping out, there He was with His folks so walked into the rest room to pretend pee..

So! I Met Him at the ATM booth.. And yeah.. He was side looking at Me, then His folk picked up a conversation with Me, and all He did, was side stare. In My mind, I was like… Move away, its not You I want to talk to. But I talked so much and loud so He could hear My voice that sounds like a singing bird. Till We said Our goodbyes.

Oh! This Bless day, I was all dressed to impress.. Whew.. Getting in, I did the usual getting a seat close to His spot. Then battling with Myself on whether or not to go out and use the rest room. Finally, the “go” won and I walked out. This time for reals I didn’t expect it. Opening the glass framed door, guess Who rolled up on Me.. Yes! Him! With the shock in both Our eyes, cold feeted, shy, and air drained. I bowed My head and slid pass Him. Without turning I walked until I was out of sight. Stopping, I sucked in so much air to keep from fainting, due to the lack of air in My lungs. During the service, lookery all the way..

So this Magnificent day, My Friends decided to keep a seat for Me..But nah.. Not in a favorable position. When He came up for a function, I could see Him clearly. Infact, He jumped often to My axis as though He was going to fall off the podium.

Then GOD was all ready to bring Us back.. The speaker talked exactly about lookery as though someone reported Us.. After everything, I realised We had been sinning. Not because We prolly liked one another, not that Our thoughts were bad.. At least for Me, all I was wishing was that We become close Friends. So no bad thoughts. But the fact that We let it distract Us from Our main Course.GOD. Cause at some point, not that I didn’t enjoy the Presence of GOD and the event I was attending. I found pleasure in the distraction of wanting to go everyday to see this Dude. After all said, the service was over. Coincidentally, They had a benediction right in front of My Friends and I, I caught Him peeking severally to look at Me.. But I refused looking directly at Him. Nigga didn’t U hear what the Preacher preached? So We stood up and left. Sadly, I realized I only had a passing crush on Him. A fling without physicals.

OUR CRUSH SIMILARITIES. #FLING WITHOUT PHYSICALS..

Well.. Crushing is a very natural thing and feeling. Nobody should go all religious about it, because You do not have control over; Who You would have a crush on, however, You have control over how You handle the crush situation.

Its is not a sin to see someone and really like the Person, but it turns a sin when negative energies and thoughts are channeled into the likeness.

Well, here’s My story about a crush I had, and Probably Our similar crushing experience. Maybe in a different storyline.

Here, in this great 3 weeks in May, when I was supposed to be consecrating Myself, I found Myself in crush with this Dude.. Here’s how it started.

There I was, watching the Musicians do Their thing. Known to all who know Me, I Am a Music Person. Enjoying the show right in front of Me, I gave My best concentration; until I turned side ways. Then I locked eyes with Him. The anonymous, cause He is Famous. Strange. I tooked away, but rather in a couple of seconds looked back that direction and Our eyes locked again. Like We planned it.

Well, that happens right? But then, It wasn’t just a regular “happens” because it became intense.. Every time I looked, We locked eyes.. So for the rest of the event, it was that way..

There I was, closing one eyes, and looking with the other eyes if He was watching. And yes He was. Maybe My looking back at Him triggered His looking too.. But which ever case, We both started committing lookery. (the act of looking)

I gave the whole worship I had for two weeks in that service,just so He could feel like Whoa! She’s a Lover of GOD. Which is not a lie, because even in that whole scene, I was trying to focus on GOD.

I Danced so much just to make a dance impression, that I almost broke My back bone.
Well, good thing was ; I wasn’t in the crush thing alone. He gave Me a good show, as much as I did Him.
When He had a function, He always looked out for Me, which of cause gave Me so much delight.

This went on for weeks.. And yes I saw Him everyday because of the function We had to attend.
Ah! Most renowned, perpetual late comer like Me, became a fervent punctual Personality(FPP); Just so I’d sit in a place where He would see Me.
This Faithful day, I got to the venue and My phone rang, on picking the call, He walked out of the gate.. Shy and tensed I walked pass Him. He mumbled a Hi but I couldn’t reply cause I was on the phone. Which ended almost immediately. I was so upset because I just missed a Hi reply to My crush. Which probably would have led to something else. Well, there will be other chances. I went in, got a seat at His favorite spot. I decided to step out to go create “other chances”. On stepping out, there He was with His folks so walked into the rest room to pretend pee..

So! I Met Him at the ATM booth.. And yeah.. He was side looking at Me, then His folk picked up a conversation with Me, and all He did, was side stare. In My mind, I was like… Move away, its not You I want to talk to. But I talked so much and loud so He could hear My voice that sounds like a singing bird. Till We said Our goodbyes.

Oh! This Bless day, I was all dressed to impress.. Whew.. Getting in, I did the usual getting a seat close to His spot. Then battling with Myself on whether or not to go out and use the rest room. Finally, the “go” won and I walked out. This time for reals I didn’t expect it. Opening the glass framed door, guess Who rolled up on Me.. Yes! Him! With the shock in both Our eyes, cold feeted, shy, and air drained. I bowed My head and slid pass Him. Without turning I walked until I was out of sight. Stopping, I sucked in so much air to keep from fainting, due to the lack of air in My lungs. During the service, lookery all the way..

So this Magnificent day, My Friends decided to keep a seat for Me..But nah.. Not in a favorable position. When He came up for a function, I could see Him clearly. Infact, He jumped often to My axis as though He was going to fall off the podium.

Then GOD was all ready to bring Us back.. The speaker talked exactly about lookery as though someone reported Us.. After everything, I realised We had been sinning. Not because We prolly liked one another, not that Our thoughts were bad.. At least for Me, all I was wishing was that We become close Friends. So no bad thoughts. But the fact that We let it distract Us from Our main Course.GOD. Cause at some point, not that I didn’t enjoy the Presence of GOD and the event I was attending. I found pleasure in the distraction of wanting to go everyday to see this Dude. After all said, the service was over. Coincidentally, They had a benediction right in front of My Friends and I, I caught Him peeking severally to look at Me.. But I refused looking directly at Him. Nigga didn’t U hear what the Preacher preached? So We stood up and left. Sadly, I realized I only had a passing crush on Him. A fling without physicals.

LONELINESS.

This is pretty much a story of a lonely girl.:(

There I was, walking. looking eastward I saw two minors talking, walking, and holding shoulders. on the street?:oah! Already making out in Their minds if I were to judge based on the way They were looking at Themselves..:> They were already committing lookry.

huh? Are You Guys serious like right now?:@ How old are You Guys anyway? Where are Your parents?:/ I thought so deep.. This World is coming to an end full stop..;( I said to Myself. I walked passed Them almost brushing Them intentionally so They’ll get the feel that what they were doing was wrong.;> Ah! They didn’t even notice Me pass, they kept on with their in-the-heart-lmmorality.:> So I thought. I stopped walking and bent down to lace My shoes,;) which lace? Lie lie! who doesn’t know? It wasn’t lacing My shoes, when did slippers start having lace? Hehehe it was busy body uneasiness..:D They passed Me again not noticing Me one more time. Angry:@ this time, I deviced a plan to eavesdrop on Their convo.:|

Well excited They passed Me, I blew behind Them like the wind.

And there! I heard what they were talking about.. OMG!:o What? Hey! Come and help Me people! I have seen and heard the long never done relationship. Here’s what I heard.. So how were You able to handle that Guy? And She replied well I asked GOD for help and HE showed Me exactly how to go about it…hmm that’s what Am talking about:D HE said. I almost forfeited My class project and tests to come down here. Anything for You; You know. Oyes.. I know.. You stalker of My life hahhaha They both laughed. I didn’t need to to tell Mom and Dad cause I had You:* but it was just so sad I didn’t have You close at the Moment.:( But Hey its good to have a Brother like You I can talk to and pray with.:D

So I stopped. just incase They sensed Me and changed the topic.

But They kept moving like the wind never slid pass.. But just before I could go back to My Amebo (nosey) state They stopped and hugged. There it was, I caught Their faces.. They were so alike it warmed My heart. :)So I got it. Actually heard a neighbor of Mine talking to someone on the phone and as usual My antennas called ears picked up the info.;) And yes He said His Son was coming back from the States, that He misses Them so Much especially His Sis.. Ah!:o What a Brotherly and Sisterly love. If only that could really exist, there will be less misbehaving Young boys and girls, I screamed out in My head.

And what caused My own snooping around? Loneliness… Exactly.. Nobody to talk to or hold helm of garment with more so shoulders.. How sad.;( Girl! Can We switch? Just for a bit.. I need this love.;(

SCARED OF TRYING.

Ok….. I really do not know how to start, Am scared of trying out everything New. In fact, Am scared of trying out anything at all. I prefer to hideout back and not show My face. I don’t want to be seen by anyone. What if I tried and fail? What if Am not accepted by people? What if they laughed at Me? What if I get a cold feet in the middle of doing it? What if I flopped? I’d just die.. Am so scared of “try”.. But Hey who said You will flop? Who said they’d laugh at You? Who said You’ll get a cold feet? Who said You wont be accepted? And so what if all those happen or have happened before. Here I Am, I had something to write to You all this while but I kept asking Myself the same question You keep asking Yourself.. What if? There is no harm in trying. Just imagine someone is waiting for Your song to be saved. Imagine if someone is waiting for You article to not commit suicide. Imagine Your rap inspiring the next World’s greatest rapper. Just imagine cause the devil is scared of You and what You have to deliver so he gets You all sucked up inside with the “what if” Question its time to shake it off. You may notice some wrong spellings, punctuations and not well constructed sentences, know why? This is why…. “So? what”so what They see the wrong spelling? I’ve passed My Message and You got it, even They got it… Imagine You replaced the “what if” with “so what” and someone messaged You and says You just saved My live with that song You wrote. Start now. Forget who’s looking at You and focus on Who’s looking up to You. You can do it. No more what ifs…